What Goes Around Comes Around




   Bismillah...

   Surely not everyone knows that today 9th June is the most precious day especially for matriculation students. Today was our result day!!

   What? You ask me how about my result? Hehe. Alhamdulillah I pass with flying colors as for me but I knew that there's plenty people are more great than me. Whatever not, I'm satisfied with what I've got. Eventhough I knew that several people may be dissapointed with me. 

   So what is my direction afterwards is, entahlah rasa macam nak stop belajar if there's is no any offer for me ((I guess so)) but if my luck is beside me, I'll try my best to be the very best. Yes, aku mengaku masa matrics dulu aku rasa akulah yang paling low diantara semua students s2ap4 tu. Entahlah prac-mate aku semuanya hebat-hebat seriously sampaikan aku rasa macam tak patut aku berada di kalangan diorang ni. Kalau dulu masa sekolah ada ranking kelas and I'm still on the first class but in matrics I guess I should be on the low-class ((if they have class-rank)).

   I'm not giving up but not so sure on what reason I'm still taking on what I'm not into. Even aku pass but still tak sanggup nak hadap benda yang kita tak minat. Aku bukan tak bersyukur yes, I'm really grateful for what God gave to me. Cuma kadang tu aku rasa macam tak diberi kebebasan untuk memilih. 

   Honestly, masa sem 1, aku almost nak quit and ambil kptm untuk TESL. Siap simpan duit elaun setiap bulan untuk daftar kptm kot. See that, bersungguh tak aku? Sebab aku rasa English je sekarang penyelamat aku eventhough I'm not that good in English. Yeah, I knew grammar aku tunggang terbalik. 

   Until then, my brother make a call with me. Bebel la jugak. Malas nak ingat apa yang dia cakap. But for sure dia suruh stay dulu mana tahu rezeki blablabla. Okay fine, aku still gagahkan habiskan hidup matriks aku mahu tidak mahu. Belajar pun macam nak tak nak. Kadang tu masuk kuliah tapi otak memang menerawang habis. Entahlah kenapa lecturer selalu cakap perempuan ni rajin la apa la but I'm not included! 

   But, I'm felt so relieved bila semuanya dah habis. Perasaan bila masa habis matriks tu Ya Allah rasa nak melompat tau! Seronok sangat and kalau boleh memang tak ngaku aku budak matriks. Biarlah aku nak ngaku aku ni budak lepasan SPM je. Hahaha. 

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